I spent a lot of time talking about anarchy, laws, etc with the guys down at the supply house.

It made me energized a bit. I mentioned how we let the "rich" take over our lives. I mentioned how hard it is to do anything about it when you have a family to worry about.

Jose, the manager, and numbnuts all agreed. I feel bad that I can't remember the manager's name at the moment.

The main thing is that I've stayed away from this topic for a lot of years because it was depressing me so much to talk about it. But there was something there. I saw a little spark in what I was saying. Maybe just maybe losing a baby was a blessing in disguise.

But I have to make it so.

It seems that my girl wants to stick through everything with me. She is almost everything I was looking for.